myspace; http://myspace.com/xlove__letterx

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who knew i could be content-ish for this long?

i mean.. hehh. theres been times where i just wanted to blast myself, but im fine. =]

yesterday, i saw him, && kldjf;sdFLK:SFK.

<3

i already miss him like hellllllllllllllllll.

ilovehim.... <3

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so its been awhile since i updated this xanga, cause. yup! i got a new one, && im not saying what it is. [if you wanna know it, ask me on aim; ne0nXskank]

but, UPDATE ON LIFE.

life, wow. its been not too bad actually. im finally getting over some emotions that ive been going through. its wonderful to say the least. :]

note;; someone tried to attempt to steal my scooby doo glove from my ass pocket. hehehe. damn wigers. haha. i slap, i tease, i leave. :]

^^my hair has some red in it now. trevor says im in a position for SOMETHING. hehe. ohh, && like my new acousic guitar? ya. i love it. <3

hey kids, add me to myspace!!

http://myspace.com/xlove__letterx  [click it. i fxcking dare you.]

^^ a night where i stayed up ALL night by myself hehe. on the computer like duh.

this break has been full of; sleepovers, friends, the mall, the movies, chatting, myspace, xanga, mp3, making out, moshing, digital camera, being cold, wanting to see dustin!, phone, family, money spending, water, not eatting, losing weight, cutting hair, NOT cutting myself, lots of sleepless nights && crying, whoreeee-kneeNESS[lmao ya, me, shelbey && michelle figured out that playing with my toes gets me horney hahaha], writing, louder music, serious pain killers, heart-mending, NOT missing school, b1tchiness, && i could keep going, but i quit. haha. OHHH && mail && mailing letters!!1

i also met tianna && trevor. pft. their fxcking awesome. tianna = hot. trevor = hot. so ya! <3 ;D

DIRTY is FANCY.

as usual, im moody. but xmas was wonderful, spent all my damn money, && new years was funny. so, ya :]   im just afraid that things will go downhill for me when i go back to school. but, who knows. shelbey, michelle, mercedes mean the world to me now. ive learned so much from, all.. all my experiences from this year. its been a crazy year, && im so releaved that its all over.

omfgomfgomfg. pete from fall out boy just licked his guitar. URGH. <333333

i am happy.fxck you i deserve it.

alriight;; so ii think ii MAY be done with xanga..         iit was lotsa fun, when ii had time to play around with it;; like durring the summer, ii was obsessed with it, && getting comments && everythiing

now its kinda like, a dragg for some reason-- &&, im kinda obsessed with my quotes && icons site/  www.xanga.com/QUOTESX_a_Xtron

ii enjoy it, && other people seem to too;; so yup. ii might come on here to answer back to comments && stuff from the people iive talked to for a while, && maybe ill give short updates, iim not sure--   hehh

ii love xanga.

&&yew!

life;;                   iits good!! && im SO glad. (=

k;so theres from FRIDAY, to today! kinda.. lmao       khere we go!

friday night;; me && shelbey went to a migration dance! eeck! haha it was so funneh && totally fun =P iit was actually the bestest dance iive been to;;   we were running around, chasiing these guyz;; they were pretty hot haha. we were playiing with their hair too! haha! it was way super 8D      we were dancing with tonz of people && doing the stupidest thiingz lmao   like, wasting $2 on these chewy thiingz && wiping them @ people! lmao! OMGZ okay there was this one girl dancing, shaking her 455 A LOT, && shelbeys through a chewy && it hit her in the 455! lmao! it was SO funneh!     them, ii got gum, && ii shoved it in this girlz hair. lmao. she lo0ked like a wh0re! ii couldnt help myself XD lmao!      then, ii met a new friiend named ''amanda''    shes way nice (=       && ii met all these other people too lolz    me && shelbz would go up && dance with people, doing the stupidest thiingz, having the bestest time ever (=        lmao omgz there was this one kid, bobby. lmao okay it was freaky. something is, wrong with him or something, && he was doing this humping motion in his seat, giggling lo0king @ me && shelbz. && some kid was like, ''yew make mr.???? <something happy!'' we were like, omg lmao.   it was freakeh =P     ii got asked to dance, but ii ignored it, cause ii wasnt there to dance with anyone, && besides;; im with dustin! XD  but yup, what else..       ii think thats it for the night..   yup =P                 lmao ii forget what ii did on the weekend.. eck!1       

monday;;.. forget lmao         OH WAIT.   lmao noah kept falling on top of meh lmao it was kinda funneh! ii kept getting hurt haha! =P ii swear, he could be a friend with benifites iif ii wanted him to be lmao, he always asks for hugz && stuffz =P     && he flirtz eh lot wit meh. haha. people think he likes meh.  but, me && noah are just fwiendz. so yup (=

tuesday;; lmao.. uhh..   OKAY! well, ii was with shelbz[duh] && umm.. ii forget lmao but ii remember what happen after school that day! kii went to practice, SAW DUSTIN <333 =D   we were talkiing after practice, cause the parentz were having a meeting, && it was just me && him in/near his van, && omg. ii wanted to kiss him so bad. but instead we talked about other thingz && laughed eh lot.   ii swear it was gonna happen! but then ben camme.. damn it. XC   lolz. iit would have been so sweet though!!!1!!!11//1!!1/1/! then dustin'z mommy came by,  && was like, ''what are yew guyz doing?!''    we were like, nothing!!!1 haha.    but his mommy is realleh nice (=  && knows that me && dustin are goin out lolz.  (=     but omgz, he makes me so happy. (=  && by lo0king @ his smile, ii can tell that ii make him happy too (=       its remarkable! XD      we push eachother around && fool around && everythiing all the time;;  haha.                    (= <33

todayy;;   today shelbs wasnt @ school, so yup;; ii hung out with ashlee, jasmine, laurie, taryn && yup   it was really funny actually. had a good day (=    jas asked why ii wasnt hanging out with my group;; &&, sadly my reply with ii was getting sick of them && all the worthless drama they were causing for me..  then she said that ii could hang out with them.. ii was like, aw (=      talked to michelle a bit, &&.. omgz ii think thingz are gonna be okay between me && her..   the reason why ii think she wasnt talkign to me was because gwen was basiically giving her a piece of her mind && shoving it into her face. but, those are just my ideaz. cause ii really dont know why else she would NOT talk to me..   even before when ii apoligized to michelle, about being with shelbey eh lot, she said its okay && she apoligized back, && everythiing was perfectly fine (=   then all of a sudden she doesnt like me anymore.  something was REALLY up with that.   but;; mehh. not much ii can do about that.     && besides, me && michelle were laughing a lot today && talking && everythiing- so it was really niice (=                        lmao!!!11 k @ the end of the day we were in art, && lmao ii kept giving noah pictures of oprah when she was ''larger''   && lmao iit was SO funny! hahaha!11    iit was hilarious! then ii found this picture in a magazine of this guy with his fist against his head. && his skin was all krinkled upm with some ltitle hairz coming out, like he hadent shaved for a bit,  && lmao! to be honest, iit lo0ked like a vagina! so lmao ii cut it out && was passing it around the class! LMAO! people were like OMG WHAT IS THAT! hahahaha ! it was SO funny! haha!     then, ii found this article in a magazine for tamponz, so ii cut them out, [they were life size] && lmao ii was joking around about giving them to people;;   && ii gave this one to dan b, && lmao! he didnt knwo what it was! haha!   so he was using the paper like it was a skateboard on his desk    LMAO ii could NOT stop laughing! he was like, ''what''   then ii was like, hang on!   then ii sent him a note that said "tampon"  && lmao he was like, oh.. && turned red hahaha it was so funny! he through it out after that of corse XD lmao! it was hilarious =P                but, ii missed shelbz )=                     what else..    me && ashlee might hang out sometime, do somethin lolz

toniight;;   so we got to practice && OMFG it was FREEZING!!! haha! it was hilarious && sucked @ de same tiime!!11 =P  haha!     k so omg dustin grabbed meh when we were going through playz lmao!   ii didnt mind though, causee.. yaa.. ii grab myself, so ii dont see anything wrong with that! haha!   but the one time he grabbed me really hard && ii was like, ''dustin!'' lmao && kept pinching him && pushing him && stuff--  haha iit was purteh funneh =P        then ii was talking to this lukas guy when we went to get hot chocolate, && dustin was trying to but in our conversation && stuff haha, it was amusing =P     then we went back, && we were being foolish, yet agen =P     then, we went to sit down in this thiingeh, with the whole team, && dustin had his arm on meh sitting beside me, so ii was like, yey!   haha we were kicking eachotherz feetz, then ii growped his thigh =P  haha!1    iit was SWELL!   after that we went to get on our way home && dustinz mommeh wasnt there yet, so he we were talkiing some morez, then lukas was like, ''dustin arent yew gonna give lizzie a hug?''   then ii was like, ''give me a hug && see what he does!''   then me && lukas hugged && haha dustin was pushing lukas around && stuff, kidding of corse, cause their kinda friendz, && hehez. iit was kinda amusing =P  then ii was like, ''bye lukas!''    lolz,  then ii said bye to dustin haha! =P   just to see if ii could spark some jealousy..  haha. iima meany, but ii wanna see if he realleh cares about me. ii mean, ii know he does-- but ii just wanted to see if he truely did.      && besides, lukas ish cute! haha! =P    but, ii really like dustin. oh-so-much. <3   im kinda afraid what'll happen after football is over between me && him, but im not gonna bother worrying about that @ the moment.. ill just live in the moment (=        as well, on the weekend were going to london, && were both taking the bus there, so maybeh we can talk morez XD   && stuff! yey!      (=       ii wike him eh lot (=       SO much. <3 eeck!1   ii swear, ii could talk about him foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRrr.     (=                           he makes me write hearts everywhere without even notiicing it! durring class im all caught up in drawing little pictures with markerz with heartz && little phrases from songz && everythiing =P       ii should scan them && show them (=       

iive been, over-all quite happy.     (=

d+l<33

r.i.p lester )= <x3

r.i.p LESTER. <x3

oh gawd lester. ii miss yew SO much. <////3

my kitty is gone now.. hes gone, forever.. </3

ii wrote down everything that ii miss about yew lester..   bleh. /=   ii reread it, from time to time && ii lose myself..   ii hate this. )=    iive cried so much about this..  even now iim crying.. /=

but.. thingz will be okay..   ii lo0k around my house, everywhere.. && everythiing remindz me of yew, my kitty. 

yew slept with me right there, yew woke me up @ 4am in the morning just for attention && food! =P , the way yew && max would fiight =P, how silly yew were, yew were dad's suck =P   even ''i'' would get jealous of that sometimez! the way yew slept with me when ii went to bed, how youd fallow me everywhere, yew loved tuna! =P, how yew used to drink from the toilet!, so soft,   hehe.       

ii swear, if yew put little bootz && a hat on lester, hed lo0k JUST like puss n' boats off of shrek!1

but, now ii lo0k..  &&, ii see am empty diish.. with no cat food. ii see an empty kitty litre..  mommy says she'll get me a new kitty, but ii know he/she shall never be anythiing like lester..  <x3      the day before lester got ran over we had bought new cat food, a little toy for him && everythiing! he'll never eat that food, nor play with that toy agen..          or, lester's first christmas. (=   that was just, adorable. <3   or, how max would get jealous of lester all the time;;    he was the runt of the bunch! he was so adorable.   when we first got him, he criied all night for his mommy.. the next day, he was fine &&, he was my suck. ii loved him. && still do. but ii miss him so much!1  yew might this iim pathetic but.. gawd. he was so remarkable.   /=

ii hate lo0king around the house && not seeing yew around. ii hate it! gawd!

lester wasnt just no ordinary kitty..

ii really gotta stop cryiing..

)=

d+l<3

when ii get better;; ill write about the amazing thingz happening in my lifee, thingz have been good..